My Stupid Mouth
Most of us have this habit of cussing. It really doesn’t matter if we’re pissed off or in high spirits, and yes, even when we’re engrossed in admiration — we cuss. It has become a part of our culture and it’s so difficult to remove it in our daily (and ordinary) conversations and expressions. I just find it amusing that whenever I am with my son, it seems that my mouth filters everything that I’m going to say. Even when we’re bobbing our heads to the music of Eminem, Greyhoundz or even Parokya Ni Edgar, I omit the cuss words almost unconciously. There was only one instance I remember saying the "S" word in front of him (I believe he was just five then). We were on our way to a pool party in Pansol that night and I was looking for a store where we can buy bottled water in those big plastic containers. I think I was driving a bit faster than the usual (20kph? hehehe) that I didn’t notice the store on our right. My son, who saw the water containers that were displayed, shouted, "Tatay, ayun!" And out of the blue I said, "Shit!" He then turned his head and stared at me. I don’t know where that came from but I told myself that I had to act fast. And so the next few syllables that went out of my mouth sounded like shit-zoo-za-ber-da-ber or something like that. Hahaha! Such a pathetic attempt to cover up my mental lapse. I guess I should have followed it up with "siritsit alibangbang" or "down, sit down, you’re rocking the boat" instead (but I’m sure it still wouldn’t work).
How come it is easier for me not to cuss in front of my son than keeping my mouth shut in front of other people? Maybe it’s because of the fact that he is my son and I have to be very careful with the words that he will hear from me. But there were lots of times when I really should’ve shut myself up and stopped talking in babbles or riddles to other people. And after an ohnosecond, I will realize that once again, I said something stupid.
We all know that John Mayer song that goes, "One more thing, why is it my fault? So maybe I try too hard. But it’s all because of this desire. I just wanna be liked. I just wanna be funny. Looks like the joke’s on me. Call me Captain Backfire."
Yes. I’m never speaking up again starting n…
